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On My Mind...
Here's a few secrets! At the age of 10 I was molested by a male cousin of mine! This is why I feel the way I do! A few
years later I attempted suicide planning to jump off a bridge with ice in the river, knowing that maybe I might get caught
under the ice and drown! My aunt "happened" to ride by and caught me! I was seeing a psychologist for a few months and never
broke! Again I attempted suicide with over dosing on tylenols and stayed in a rehab like place for a month! Still didn't break!
Suicide was all that I wanted to do, it was all that I knew! I didn't care if I died, how I died who I would hurt and so forth!
17 years later the break that I seeked finally, finally broke through! I had a son! Xzavior-Rhyan! Since his birth I have
never been the same EVER again! Though admittingly I did have memories of my past but it doesn't phase me one bit, it feels
like an imagination or somehting of someone else' life! 28 years old and I am still alive and I am VERY THANKFUL to GOD my
master & creator, that he didn't take my life, that he held on to me before I jumped and he had given me something I tried
to take of myself, "Life" in my sons eyes he is my everything and everything is him...
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